Are we all perhaps linked by invisible bonds? Do the actions of one affect others, even if those others are far away? Our lives and the universe itself may be all part of a single mechanism in which all creatures and events are 'entangled' with one another.

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Tears In The Purple Rain

Earlier this morning while channel surfing I came across the movie "Purple Rain" starring Prince. I watched the last half that was playing and it reminded of an earlier time in my life. This isn't meant to be a movie review, I'll leave that up to Tallulah, but the music is the best part of this film. The title song, "Purple Rain", in particular speaks to me because it reminds of someone I once and still do, I guess, cared for very much. But I was young and scared, unable to express my love for him. I hadn't come out yet, not really even to myself, and couldn't bring myself to tell him how much I cared for him. Some day soon I hope to tell the rest of the story here, but right now, its still too emotional for me to talk about.

So I sat here earlier, crying like a schoolgirl, over lost loves and lost opportunities, something I sure many reading this can relate to. The last two weeks or so, though it seems like much longer, have been a strange time for me.
Since I started this blog, I've read several other's blogs and have chatted with or e-mailed a few people. I've made some new friends who made me laugh and also cry at some of the terrible things that have happened to them in their lives.

I don't think I've felt as much emotion in my life up to now as I have in these past couple of weeks. Throughout my day I find my thoughts turning to my new friends and hoping they're doing well. I even went out two days ago to buy a new pre-paid cel phone in the hopes of someday talking to some of these new friends--and in the past 30 years, I've only owned a phone for about 2 years, believe it or not!
I've printed the lyrics to "Purple Rain" below, if anyone hasn't heard the song.
The last thing I want to say right now is this--if you're with someone you love now go give them a hug and a kiss and if there's someone you care for, tell them how you feel. Don't let time past you by and live to regret it later.

Purple Rain (click to hear song)

I never meant 2 cause u any sorrow
I never meant 2 cause u any pain
I only wanted 2 one time see u laughing
I only wanted 2 see u laughing in the purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
I only wanted 2 see u bathing in the purple rain
I never wanted 2 be your weekend lover
I only wanted 2 be some kind of friend
Baby, I could never steal u from another
It's such a shame our friendship had 2 end
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
I only wanted 2 see u underneath the purple rain
Honey, I know, I know, I know times r changing
It's time we all reached out 4 something new
That means u 2
U say u want a leader
But u can't seem 2 make up your mind
I think u better close it
And let me guide u 2 the purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain
Purple rain, purple rain...I only want 2 see u, only want 2 see u
In the purple rain


  1. I don't remember when I've heard this song the last time ... but it provokes always a sweet sadness in my mind ...

    Have a great weekend, Mike

  2. Sure opportunities may have come and gone, but you shouldn't regret them. There is nothing that you can do to change what happened (or didn't), you can only make a note of it, decide to react differently when a similar situation occurs, and move on with your life.

    Moreover, things happen for a reason and past experiences shape your future. Maybe at that time you were not ready for something to happen, but it is now opening some doors for you.

    Use your past to move forward! Don't dwell on the past!!!

  3. Just stopping in to say Thanx!

  4. Good advice, Adam, thanks.
    I don't usually dwell in the past but this past week has been a bit stressful. I also think I may have a touch of Spring fever, as the weather here is finally warming up...and it seems to affect my mood.